Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Turning 30!

Last post - June 28th --- It's been a long time since I updated my blog. I just wanted to make
this one entry as I entered the hallowed 4th decade of my existence on God's green earth. I feel very lucky to have achieved most of what I wanted to achieve before turning 30. For a person who was given up by his parents as a hopeless case at the age of 20, I think I have done pretty well :)

I have really beautiful people in my life... my wife, my parents and my friends. Work is not too taxing and neither is it too boring (of course it does not pay enough, but name one person who is happy about his pay!) I have my health as well, which is a surprise consider the myriad varieties of adventure sports I have taken part in!

My wife has already gifted me a bunch of things for my birthday, so here are 10 'REAL' wishes:

1) I wish that CPI would let the Indo-US Nuclear deal go through. Cheap clean nuclear power is the need of the hour.

2) I wish religious terrorism would stop. I have heard enough about Hindu killing Muslims and Muslims killing Hindus and everyone killing everyone else in the name of religion.

3) I wish politicians were, or started, younger

4) I wish we would stop polluting the atmosphere and depleting the forests and the ozone layer! I would hate my children refusing to inherit the earth!!

5) I wish Bollywood made more watchable films like Chak De India and Dhamaal (thinking only of the ones in the recent past :)) and kicked Hollywood butt!!

6) I wish discrimination against the girl child would stop.

7) I wish traffic would make more sense. I am afraid of driving on Hyderabad roads now!

8) I wish everyone in India would vote!! It really makes a difference, people!

9) I wish computers and the internet were faster!

and finally

10) I wish India rocks the next few decades... we are being heralded as the next big superpower... let's prove everyone right!

And here is another wishlist (a little selfisher :))

  • I wish for a Macintosh Powerbook, a Vertu Cellphone and a Bentley... my life would then be complete!
  • I wish I could fit into my size 30 jeans again! :(
  • I wish the Indian cricket team would go to Australia and kick their ass!! I have had enough of them winning every match
So, here's signing off for the last time before I turn 30! I always dreaded the day.. but somehow, I feel it's not so bad now, and I have many people to thank for it - my family, my friends and most importantly, my wife!!

LOVE YOU ALL!!

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Some more pics from our amazing trip to Thailand! I know it's been a while and maybe I should get over it, but I simply can't :)





Wednesday, June 13, 2007

I love being married... I recommend it to everyone! :)

Monday, April 16, 2007




















The Big Day cometh!! :)

Monday, February 26, 2007

One for the sweet girl who I am going to marry soon!

I'm willing to surrender
To every notes that spin around
This feeling's clinging to me
And it flows through my veins

The melody sung is secret
Emotions fade into music
I could lose my breath
But even that I'd give up for you

My body shivered as I saw you
The clouds unravel my thoughts
A storm raged around us
And we felt its majesty

Our path is perfectly clear
We belong among the clouds
You destroyed my mundane existence
I will embrace the storm in you!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

5 hours!!

I got a call late at night at 10.30 on the 13th of February from her -

She: "Can you get a day off from work tomorrow?"
Me: "No baby, its gonna be a busy day"
She: "Ok nevermind.. come pick me up at Delhi airport tomorrow at 9 AM"
Me: "Huh? What?"
She: "Come pick me up at Delhi airport tomorrow at 9 AM... I wanna spend our first valentine's day together"
Me: "Girl, are you crazy? How are you gonna do it?"
She: "I have the tickets in my hand.. I have already done it"
Me: "....... wow"
Me: "Ok.. will be there"

So my sweet darling gets to work at 7 in the eve on 13th, works till 2 in the morning, leave for the airport at 4.30, catches the 6.30 flight and gets to Delhi at 9 AM.

We spend the most amazing 5 hours together.. and then she has to leave.. she catches the 4 PM flight on the 14th and reaches Hyd at 7 and goes to work immediately!!!

I always knew that women were strong and that when they loved someone, they loved completely... but this remains, to this day, the most amazing gift I have received from a loved one.. those 5 hours of my life will remain forever precious to me..

They dont make women like you anymore, my mad little girl!!

Friday, February 09, 2007

Whisper Clandestine

Various dimensions
You need to live
To freshen from daily shift
And all these humiliations

This reality is untouchable
So near and yet so far
Never enough to reach
The realization of subconscious dreads

Any unreal shape frightens me
I strike relentlessly with fierce attack
You obey you own thoughts
Surrender to the dream-demons

Where reason stops and heart begins
There's a gem just below the fire
Fixed in black and symbols of desire
And a craving to sort you out

To cast you out into darkness
A nighttime whisper clandestine
The nature of secrecy
And disillusioned in between

Thursday, January 25, 2007

The Most Amazing Piece of Music Ever Composed - LATERALUS by Tool

I have always been fascinated by mathematics. I was never one of those kids who hated Maths. I loved numbers and still do. I have thought up tricks with numbers to freak people out as well. I was completely blown away when I read the article below, though! Tool has always been a favorite band of mine, but this was simply astounding... I have no idea who the original author is, and I apologize if this is plagiarism, but I just HAD to post this.. read on and be astounded!! Let me know if you wanna hear the album!

To me, Tool's Lateralus is the most amazing piece of music ever composed. I think Tool deliberately wanted to give their fans something truly amazing, but wanted them to find it on their own. "Recognize this as a holy gift..." At first, I thought that the song Lateralus was about tripping acid - discovering true color by seperating the body from the mind. At first listen, I imagined the bending envelope as an intense visual. After becoming more familiar with the track, however, I had reformed my interpretation to something broader: think deeper. Lateralus, perhaps because it is the album's "title track", serves as the central clue for a puzzle that a friend of mine had read about somewhere on the internet. "All I know is that there is a different order for the songs - something about two spirals. Oh yeah, and thirteen is in the middle." After scavenging through endless google search results, I gave up on finding more about this 'alternate order'.

Intent to figure the album out, and very curious about the spirals - I put on the proverbial 'thinking cap'. I understood how the spirals could have a lot of significance, in that the album's title track offers the inspiring, "swing on the spiral of our divinity and still be a human..........And following our will and wind we may just go where no one's been. We'll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one's been." In my internet scavenging, I had read one review, written by a drummer, who mentioned that Danny Carey's drum beat formed a fibonacci sequence during the song Lateralus. A drummer myself, I decided to get out the graph paper and follow Danny. I can't play like he can, but at least I can hear everything he's doing, and thus was able to construct the drum tabulature. Sure enough, Danny repeats a Fibonacci sequence through the number 13: 1,1,2,3,5,8,13. After 13, he starts again with 1.

Bringing in my Algebra 2 knowledge of the Fibonacci sequence, when the equation for the Fibonacci sequence (which I don't actually know) is graphed, it forms a sprial whose vertex depends on the number at which the sequence begins. Coincidence? I began to think not. I had already known of Danny's obsession with sacred geometry and am familiar with Bob Frissell's book, Nothing in This Book Is True, But It's Exactly How Things Are , so the significance of what I had stumbled upon had actually begun to settle in. This is where I just had to play with Lateralus. I had doodled a few spirals in the corners of my graph paper, and in doing so made the first important connection to Lateralus. I knew that if the tracks were in fact intended to be heard in a different order, "Parabol" and "Parabola" would have to go together. In drawing my spirals, I had begun with a vertex and 'spiraled' outwards. After writing the numbers 1 through 13 linearly, I could immediately see that Parabol and Parabola would have to be the middle of my spiral (in that 13 / 2 = 6.5). I drew a simple arrow between 6 and 7 and then pondered the next pair. At first, I actually drew a spiral connecting pairs of numbers whose sum equaled 13 (the number of songs on the album). This, however, left the last track in the same position and without anything to connect to.

At this time, I had used my copy of Lateralus and Cool Edit Pro to take out the silences between tracks and put the songs in the following order: 6,7,5,8,4,9,3,10,2,11,1,12,13. The transition from Parabola into Schism blew my mind, as the plucks, probably dismissed by listeners as a drawn out rant of an ending, perfectly transition into the beginning of Schism. When you count out beats as the strings are plucked, Schism resumes with the same time signature and tempo - mirroring the progression of notes. The transition from Schism into Ticks & Leeches is equally intriguing. Schism ends with strong double-kick bass and tom smacks, and Ticks & Leeches begins with what many would call a 'tribal' drum beat. The beat at the very start of Ticks & Leeches is slightly different every subsequent time it is repeated - the measures are two beats longer. Yup - you guessed it - those two beats are ACTUALLY the last two beats of Schism. I can honestly say that I never understood the album's fourth track, Mantra until reordering the album's songs. What I had originally heard as whale calls now had begun to resemble the worst imaginable dry heaves - or a stylized choking. Fitting, seeing as how the last line in Ticks & Leeches is "I hope you choke." After this transition, none of those following it really seemed to make much sense. I certainly didn't like that Disposition and Reflection had been seperated - as they sound quite good when played sequentially on the album. This was the only real roadblock in my disciphering of the Holy Gift. Then I had remembered what my friend had told me - 13 was in the middle. At the time, probably just wanting to believe that there was more to this cd, I had equated this to the positioning of the song "Intermission" on the previous release, ├ćnema. For the song to be in the 'middle' of the album it would have to be the seventh track in sequence, here having six tracks on either side of it.

So I inserted Faaip de Oiad after Lateralus, and almost peed my pants when I discovered that (ever-so-faintly) the fading tone of the last note of Lateralus could be heard in beginning of Faaip de Oiad, and how the distortion of the guitars at the tail end of Lateralus resembled, and later transitioned seamlessly into, the static at the beginning of Faaip de Oiad. The lyrics of Lateralus justify this break in the spiral, almost instructing: "spiral out, keep going, spiral out, keep going." I went back to Lateralus to find the next clue.

In Danny Carey's amazingly competent Fibonacci sequence, he had stopped at 13 and gone back to 1. This is what I chose to do to finish the sequence. A second spiral was now constucted, and the order for the Holy Gift now became 6,7,5,8,4,9,13,1,12,2,11,3,10. Already many of you are probably fascinated at what I have revealed to you, but I can not even begin to tell you what this new order has opened up for me.

The beauty of Lateralus is very, very fragile and has to be viewed with a very open mind. It can also be different when looked at from different points of view. Aside from the fact that the new order of the songs places them in an order where they flow together nicely - often ending and resuming on the same notes or within the same progression, and some times - in the case of Lateralus into Faaip de Oiad and The Grudge into Triad - even overlapping (though admittadly sound much better when actually electronically overlapped, this is kind of cheating. Consider this a hint, however, if you plan on doing this yourself), the two spirals help to tell a story that every Tool fan should hear. In the interest of not boring the only casually intrigued, I will try to keep this very brief. I would also recommend familiarizing yourselves with Frissell's book (yeah - the one I mentioned earlier). I consider Parabol and Parabola to be quite expository. Maynard wants us to know that no matter what happens, we must all know that this is not our only existance. Our very minds and the contents of our subconscious are intended to be immortal, and if we accept this into our lives (be it because of personal or religious reasons), it will be so. As such, pain is an illusion. At first, I called it "The Lateralus Prophecy" (for reasons you will soon understand), but I have since decided to call the 'reordered' version of Lateralus "The Holy Gift". As Maynard says, "Recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing," I take the word "this" to mean much more than just his simple cautioning. Since Parabola is the second track of the Holy Gift, it can be considered at the beginning (esp. considering the context of it's duality with Parabol), and as such, I interpret Maynard's words as more than just clever lyrics in a song. They are a plead for his listeners to listen to everything he has to say and truly celebrate the chance of immortality offered throughout. I would be lying if I said that each song has a specific translation. On the contrary, Tool's music is designed to make you think, not say something specific. It must be treated like great literature - much is hidden contextually.

I will elude to Geometric-Drumming's previous post, where he explains the time signatures of Schism: "It represents the title...it's arranged in 12/8 time which is SPLIT into 5/8 and 7/8 - which only really FITS as you PUT THE PIECES BACK TOGETHER." Where Geometric-Drumming claims Schism as his favorite Tool song, I have heard some fans say that it was a retched pick for the album's only single - but I think it was brilliant. Not to downplay the interpretations of those who have posted before me (in fact, I agree with much of what %BlueSoulRobot% has to say), but I think that to the casual listener who knows nothing of Tool, it can be a powerful invitation.

Think about it - a lot of dingbats with MTV and a radio would walk around with the words "I know the pieces fit" in their heads. I wonder how many of them took the time to put the pieces back together to (re)discover what is trying to be communicated. I welcome any feedback. I would love to share interpretations of the songs via email - just too lengthy to post here. I would like to offer the following advice: DO NOT use MP3s to digitally reorder Lateralus. A lot of VERY IMPORTANT information is encoded on the actual cd. Ever notice how everyone who has lost or broken that cd has IMMEDIATELY gone out and bought a new copy? I know I have. It's because there are things encoded on the factory pressing of the cd that are lost in the mp3 compression process and any direct copy onto a cd-r. If you want to do it, do it right - I can't stress how important this is. Use the cda tracks as you put it together and maintain all audio fidelity using professional mixing software.

There's a Fibonacci in Maynard's lyrics, specifically the syllables:

black [1]
then [1]
white are [2]
all I see [3]
in my infancy [5]
red and yellow then came to be [8]
reaching out to me [5]
lets me see [3]
there is [2]
so [1]
much [1]
more and [2]
beckons me [3]
to look through to these [5]
infinite possibilities [8]
as below so above and beyond I imagine [13]
drawn outside the lines of reason [8]
push the envelope [5]
watch it bend [3]


I suppose it's not actually a true Fibonacci, since it does reverse itself.

The Fibonacci Sequence : It's basically a string of numbers that when you add a number to the number before it, you get the next number. Starting with the numbers 0 and 1. 0+1=1, so the set now looks like this; 0 1 1. You take the 1 and add the previous number (1) and you get 2. The sequence looks like this; 0 1 1 2. Now you take the 2 and add the previous number and get 3. Now you have 0 1 1 2 3. When you add the 3 and the 2 you get 5. 0 1 2 3 5. 5+3=8. 0 1 1 2 3 5 8. The process continues.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

A New Begining

I hereby start 2007 with no ill will towards anyone and wish each one of those people (you know who you are), the very best of luck!! If anything, you have made me a stronger man! Although we are not even friends anymore, I wish nothing but the best in life for you! You have been with me more in happy times than sad, and that counts for a lot! I have smiled, laughed, cried, fought with you... But I believe that no matter how dire the circumstances, every person deserves to be forgiven...

So, to all of you that I have "hurt" in the past... I am sorry... I hope all is forgiven and we can all make a fresh start on our paths!!

Monday, January 08, 2007

A thought for the year past and the new year that's just begun :

You've changed the color of autumn
To a deeper shade of red
The lullaby of my still beating heart
Parades through my consciousness

Just that I don't believe
In fairy tales any more
And this glass casket of borrowed dreams
Will only open old wounds again

You are nothing but porcelain
Under my stony skin
And I'll never see your pale face
Framed by your dark hair

Deny me of this pleasure yet again
All tucked away in my closet now
Another pair of lips and eyes
Blessed are the heartless, blessed be you

Thursday, January 04, 2007

Welcome 2007!!

So lets see what I learnt in the year past :

- Learnt not to do stupid things in life
- Learnt to DEAL with stupid things that I DID do
- Learnt not to trust my instincts
- Learnt that life is going to throw you a vicious bouncer at every turn
- Learnt how NOT to duck those bouncers
- Learnt that I am not as valuable to certain people as I thought I was

And lets see what the last year did for me :

- Good year professionally
- Good year for breaking new year resolutions before the end of January
- Good year for putting thoughts on paper (or blogs)
- Bad year for relationships
- Bad year for playing sports
- Bad year for health (shoulder, neck and leg problems)

That being said, I could not have wished for a better year than the one past.. It taught me a lot and left me with the lingering feeling that I will be completing 30 years of my life and I am still single :-)